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“Insomnia” an original painting by the author

Gestating in Creation’s Call

The creative process is very similar to the gestation process of human life. Think about it for a moment: you receive a download of some sort to create; an urge or desire, logical or illogical, and depending on how willing you are to yield into the power of creation’s call, you birth from a place of darkness, mystery, and isolation. Regardless of the perceived support around you, the process is reclusive.

Like an expectant mother carrying a seed for the first time, you may experience feelings of anxiety, joy, nervousness, awe, and self-criticism. While we are aware that two entities are needed for co-creation, how you birth what you carry is primarily dependent on you. Only you can feel your seed burgeoning and becoming in a way that no one else could ever understand. …


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Photo Credit: Jazmine Desarrae

It Takes Time to Process

According to the Department of Justice, less than 20% of rapes are reported and sexual violence is still seen as “shameful, hence victim reluctance.” It is also stated that 1 in 3 females are sexually abused by the age of 18. This is saddening, and most men typically do not face their well-deserving consequences. This is partly due to the silence on behalf of the victims through means of manipulation, threats, naivete, and control.

As a woman, when sexual abuse and assault happens, we don’t typically see it for what it truly is. It takes time to process. If it happened during adolescence,(which most do) we typically won’t even feel its wounding until years later when the trauma begins to show up in our relationships, fears, and behavioral patterns. The victim one day realizes that in order to grow and move forward, she must go back to those dark places where the shadows of her pain are still lurking and very much alive. No one can heal a woman from the trauma of sexual abuse and assault. I am by no way undermining psychological and therapeutic professions (they play a critical role) however, a woman’s own courage is the first step, and it is the medicine she needs to move forward and re-claim her Self. …


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Photo by Ben Vaughn on Unsplash

That Thing

Every woman has it. She may be convinced that a pair of jeans or the dress that hugs her in all the right places is the key. She may cut her hair, dye her tresses, or add in extensions. She may even go as far as getting surgical procedures to “fix” the flaws that are in her eyes less desirable. The gym may chip away her physical insecurities but ultimately, she won’t find it there either. She is trying to affirm that she has it —that thing. But she is missing the target by more than a long shot. …


“I am seeking, I am striving, I am in it with all my heart,” — Vincent Van Gogh

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An original photo by Hank McClellan

We are all artists. Yes, you read that correctly. Everyone is an artist. You don’t have to be an established painter, singer, dancer, or world renowned musician. Art is simply being in tune with, accessing, and honoring your creativity. Art is about turning the mundane into an experience worth living. It’s about embellishing your life’s story. It’s about honoring the way your soul desires to express itself as a living embodiment of time. …


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Photo by mwangi gatheca on Unsplash

It may not trigger you to see a white man with his body weight and knees forcefully pinned into a black man’s neck like a snake constricting the life out of its prey. It should, but perhaps it isn’t culturally relevant. You’re probably not courageous or convicted enough to share it on your social media platform because you want to maintain the status quo. Maybe you see no value in expanding the awareness of your non-brown friends. Perhaps you are in denial about the bigotry and hatred that continues to ride the backs of black men. I know that conversations about injustice can feel like foreign territory. I get it, and I can even admit to my own naivete in the wake of police brutality, and trying to create a narrative to soothe the reality of hatred in its purity. It’s hard to swallow, hard to accept, and it’s beyond heartbreaking. …


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Photo Credit: Jazmine Desarrae

Casual Sex is not Casual

Perhaps the “hook-up” culture has normalized casual sex. Sex is beautiful, enticing, and fun but you deserve better than playboy dick. Sex is an energetic and spiritual exchange, and it isn’t natural for a woman to open her sacred gate and numb the expansion of her heart out of fear and disappointment. Energy lingers in a woman’s womb after sex longer than the residue of her vagina’s nectar on a man’s dick and there is nothing casual about feeling a man’s imprint inside of your body when he has no intention to fully love you. Perhaps you want to yield into the body’s natural desire, explore your longings, or feel sexually liberated. Maybe you’ve been in a dry spell and you’re feeling lonely, divorced and want to feel that spark again, or just single and growing impatient — and losing hope. These are all valid reasons to have sex; it is your body, and you should do as you please with it, however, you are not desperate. …


A feminine perspective on empowering a man’s sexuality

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Photo by photo-nic.co.uk nic on Unsplash

Men have it tough, but I respect them so much! Yeah, they may have egos larger than the universe itself, but rightfully so! I don’t know what it feels like to carry a man’s burden (and I never want to find out). The man who understands his role and takes pride in it, gives his woman the gift of a lifetime: his protection, devotion, and honor. …


A short poem calling you home to the wisdom of your essence

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Photo by Victor Kallenbach on Unsplash

I’ve been here with you, and I nourished the energy of your essence through the cord of creation.

I watched you blossom, and I’ve been whispering my deepest wisdom to you since the very beginning.

When the air kissed your wet flesh for the very first time, I held you close and embraced you in the cradle of my arms.

As you opened your eyes, I stared back at you as an affirmation of safety

to begin the journey of your first awakening.

I’ve always been here.

When the storms began to rise and rage from your core, it was me initiating you into the depths of my secrets. Even in the clouds of your own doubt, you know them well. …


Get inside the ring, and fight your fight!

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When boxers are in the ring, their main focus is the fight. Although thousands of people flood the arenas, cameras flickering, and eye candy dallying on by, they can’t afford to lose focus. If they entertain the slightest thought about not measuring up to their opponent, chances are they won’t. Should their mind dwindle on images and banter being shouted from outside of the ring, they’ve already lost. Similarly, when you compare yourself to someone else, you welcome and invite defeat. It is not in your nature to play small and second-guess your skills, wit, strength, and ability. You’ve come too far. So you walk inside this fucking arena, and enter the ring like you own this bitch. Stay focused! You came here for the title. …


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Photo by Jon Flobrant on Unsplash

During this time, I know many have been affected by COVID-19. Having been in direct contact with the virus myself and overcoming the brutal deathly symptoms, I can attest to its severity.

While many on are lockdown, teachers are still at the forefront of education. We’re up early devising our next lesson plan, formulating our curriculums, creating new content for online engagement, and meeting and teaching via Zoom and Google Classroom (which are amazing platforms for interactivity, creativity, and feedback). …

About

Jazmine Desarrae

Educator. Artist. Devoted to Embodying and Awakening the Divine Feminine. ascendingwomanartistry.com

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